I've been noticing what kind of threads you like and have taken a look at some of the things you write about. In doing that I've noticed a definite pattern. Please try not to take this offensively, but you've been asking redundant questions for over four years and you apparently still don't have the answer you're looking for. This infatuation seems to torment you, like there is a war inside of you between whether or not you want to believe in God and salvation.
You seem conflicted and it's almost like you have to convince yourself to hang on to the last thread of hope.
I don't know if there is a God. There have been definite moments in my life, very infrequent though, that even as a rational man was certain I was touched by the hand of God. Those precious few moments though cannot sustain a relationship. And that's what Jesus likens it to, right? A marriage? Can a marriage survive without communication? It sure as hell seems like he either doesn't exist, doesn't answer prayer, or is just totally indifferent to it.
My question is not so much whether or not God exists. My questions are if there is one, is this anything like what is described in the Bible? How would we know either way? Or forget about knowing, how do you even develop the faith to sustain your belief?
What if he is just the biggest son-of-a-bitch you can think? Or indifferent to your suffering?
If God created everything and made us the way we are, then doesn't that make hmi responsible for the product?
Al Pacino once said in a role as Satan,
"Look, but don't touch... Touch, but don't taste... Taste, but don't swallow!"
That really made an impact on me because it certainly seems unfair to demand these expectations for an absent father who only comes around when you are on the absolute brink of despair. He supposedly gives you something like a strong sexual desire, but then condemns you if you act on the very impulse he imparted! WTF?!?!
I guess then my question to you is, what does this all benefit you? What are you getting out of this deal, where he gets all praise and worship for
what exactly? What does he do? That's a serious and honest question. I'm not being rhetorical.
Edited by Hyroglyphx, : No reason given.
"Fix reason firmly in her seat, and call to her tribunal every fact, every opinion. Question with boldness even the existence of a God; because, if there be one, he must more approve of the homage of reason, than that of blindfolded fear." Thomas Jefferson