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BMG83
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Message 1 of 14 (781110)
03-31-2016 9:45 PM


Hello.
I've frequented this site for quite some time. I created my account when I was
about 18 years old. I used the name Infixion, then changed it to BMG04, if I
remember correctly. I didn't post very often, for my ability to debate was wanting,
and my well of knowledge from which to draw and construct arguments, observations and
insights was shallow and dry (The irony of wearing the name 'Infixion', at the time, went
unnoticed). So, I found myself in the audience more often than not, watching some build
their arguemnts while others examine and point out its flaws.
What I found most important about my joining this site, however, was in instilling a desire
to improve my ability to reason, as well as to pursue new and exciting subjects of inquiry.
For these reasons I wanted to thank Percy and the EVC posters for placing a passion within
me to learn and improve. This urge towards perpetual improvement and self-cultivation was
reinforced in college, and expressed, although dissimilarly, by Hegel and Neitzsche as
Bildung.
I write this brief but heartfelt gratitude because I fear my life may be coming to an abrupt
end. I'm afraid that I have cancer. The primary tumor is situated at the back of my head, and
has since metastatized to the front of my face, my nose, forehead, eyes, and lip.
I believe it has also moved into my intestines, for a pain in my abdomen is exacerbating,
and increases when I eat anything. My WBC is dropping, and my strength and appetite is
deteriorating.
Doctors refuse to help me. They're adament in their beliefs. Most of us know why, but may
differ on the strength of those beliefs. Many of you have never seen nor ever will - and I
hope you never will - a doctor's face that is bright red, smirking, and betraying a mind
brimming with insidious intentions.
I'd be lying if I said I was not afraid. To look, unblinking, into an eternal abyss
where regna il silenzio while standing at the tip of a crumbling ledge is terrifying. I'm
only 32, turning 33 in April. Solace in the recollection of lived experiences brings more
pain than promise of comfort, for the paths towards many experiences were obstructed; And not
necessarily obscure or rare experiences, but quite overlooked and taken-for-granted ones,
such as privacy, human bonding, and trustworthiness.
Lastly, and most importantly, I would like to wish the best of luck and a long life to
RAZD and Asgara, as well as any others who are stricken with cancer.
Forgive the long post, and please do not respond.
Farewell.

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Message 2 of 14 (781112)
03-31-2016 10:05 PM


Thread Copied from Proposed New Topics Forum
Thread copied here from the A Farewell thread in the Proposed New Topics forum.

  
Asgara
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Message 3 of 14 (781113)
03-31-2016 10:07 PM
Reply to: Message 1 by BMG83
03-31-2016 9:45 PM


I can't not respond. Peace and light my friend.

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AZPaul3
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Message 4 of 14 (781116)
03-31-2016 10:50 PM
Reply to: Message 1 by BMG83
03-31-2016 9:45 PM


Forgive the long post, and please do not respond.
Forgiven. But I refuse to comply with the latter.
You got to experience life. You got to live even if just for too short a time.
Rail against the unfairness but revel in having had life.
The rest of us will follow you shortly.

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jar
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From: Texas!!
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Message 5 of 14 (781118)
03-31-2016 11:08 PM


May your journey be always upward.

Anyone so limited that they can only spell a word one way is severely handicapped!

  
dwise1
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Message 6 of 14 (781120)
03-31-2016 11:49 PM
Reply to: Message 1 by BMG83
03-31-2016 9:45 PM


I do not remember whether we had ever conversed. If so, then I hope I was not too much of a jerk. I try not to be and I try to keep to the truth or at least to being truthful, though I do know that I fail far too often.
You are going where we all will also go eventually. Like all of us, you will take whatever comfort you can in whatever you believe or feel. Of course, you have already put all your affairs in order, so that you need not worry about such trivial things -- trivial to you, but important to those you love. I am 64 and I think about putting everything in order; it is sad that you must do the same at almost-33, but it is the same thing.
When my mother died, she had been on life-support. When it came time to turn it off, we were all there, including our minister. Immediately afterwards, he remarked that the moment of death is when we all of us are alone. I disagree slightly. Many do indeed die alone, as my father had. But when we do die, we would want to be with the people whom we love and who love us. Because that love will help you, I truly believe.

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Adminnemooseus
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Message 7 of 14 (781122)
04-01-2016 12:06 AM


BMG message index page etc
BMG's message index page is here:
EvC Forum: BMG Topic Index
There is also a list of topics he started, but things are not set up that I can supply a direct link. If interested in such, please go here, at "Search by Messages or Thread Titles" select "Thread Titles", and enter BMG in the "Search by Author Name" field.
I'm not going to do it now, but perhaps the BMG83 and BMG IDs should be merged.
Adminnemooseus
Edited by Adminnemooseus, : Very minor tweak.

  
Hyroglyphx
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Message 8 of 14 (781126)
04-01-2016 2:55 AM
Reply to: Message 1 by BMG83
03-31-2016 9:45 PM


Lastly, and most importantly, I would like to wish the best of luck and a long life to
RAZD and Asgara, as well as any others who are stricken with cancer.
Forgive the long post, and please do not respond.
I'm sorry, but humanity demands that I respond in some small way. You obviously do not want sympathy, so I won't placate you. All I have to say is, continue to fight. You still have the breath of life, so savor every last moment. By doing so, you can either go peacefully knowing you fought the good fight or make a remarkable recovery and will view life more beautifully than ever.
In either event, in this moment, you are alive. So let it be.
Best wishes to you.

"Reason obeys itself; and ignorance submits to whatever is dictated to it" -- Thomas Paine

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Phat
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Message 9 of 14 (781135)
04-01-2016 6:40 AM
Reply to: Message 1 by BMG83
03-31-2016 9:45 PM


The Anonymous
I too had to respond. Its ironic that I as a Christian can ignore so many online persons until they write a letter such as you have. I wont give you any long religious speech nor try and convert you if indeed this is your last farewell...all I can say is trust Jesus.
Thanks for sharing your pain with us as well as whatever you shared in less stressful days...
ABe: WE have had several of our members die here...and its an odd human trait that I find myself more curious about someone who has departed...or in your case as someone who is faced with bleak facts. I pray that you live a long life regardless what any facts show...and that you find peace in your soul if it isn't there already.
Edited by Phat, : thinking what to say

Chance as a real force is a myth. It has no basis in reality and no place in scientific inquiry. For science and philosophy to continue to advance in knowledge, chance must be demythologized once and for all. —RC Sproul
"A lie can travel half way around the world while the truth is putting on its shoes." —Mark Twain

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Faith 
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From: Nevada, USA
Joined: 10-06-2001


Message 10 of 14 (781137)
04-01-2016 6:51 AM
Reply to: Message 1 by BMG83
03-31-2016 9:45 PM


As others have said, there's no way not to respond despite your asking it. All I can do is sympathize, it sounds frightening beyond belief, and echo Phat's "trust Jesus" even though I know you've heard it and rejected it a million times. He's God, He hears you, He died for you, He will give you eternal life if you ask Him for it.
I wish you the best.

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Dogmafood
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Joined: 08-04-2010


Message 11 of 14 (781147)
04-01-2016 9:36 AM
Reply to: Message 1 by BMG83
03-31-2016 9:45 PM


We are Star Dust
...

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Message 12 of 14 (781150)
04-01-2016 10:23 AM
Reply to: Message 1 by BMG83
03-31-2016 9:45 PM


Thank you.

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nwr
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Message 13 of 14 (781185)
04-01-2016 6:25 PM
Reply to: Message 1 by BMG83
03-31-2016 9:45 PM


I'll say only that the cheer I gave is a way of sending my best wishes. It is not a "like" of your predicament. And I suspect that the same is true of the other cheers.
Thanks for posting.

Fundamentalism - the anti-American, anti-Christian branch of American Christianity

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roxrkool
Member (Idle past 989 days)
Posts: 1497
From: Nevada
Joined: 03-23-2003


Message 14 of 14 (782378)
04-22-2016 1:59 PM
Reply to: Message 1 by BMG83
03-31-2016 9:45 PM


...
Thank you, Infixion, for thinking so highly of the members here that you would feel compelled to share with us your difficult journey ahead.
There are no words of solace I can offer that would not sound silly and trite, as I am simply not that gifted, however, please know that your words were powerful and struck me deeply.
Farwell.

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