sidelined writes:
I am curious, you state you are bored yet from what I have heard from you in your posts I cannot fathom that you would find the need for a disaster to happen to people in order to to see heroes in action.What is it you find boring about life that you would celebrate disaster?
You are right about me. In real life, I am a very enthusiastic person who is always interested in learning, meeting people, and getting close to people. In fact, and I swear I am not exaggerating this, I'm having trouble remembering all of my friends' names. Too many to keep track of.
What I find boring about life is that everything in my life seems to be written in stone... cold and hard. I've tried so many things to get myself out of my semi-depressive state. I've driven 6 hours to another state just so I could meet someone for the first time. I've joined every philosophical club and every sport group I could spare time for. I've switched major twice. I've driven to New Mexico to help build a house for Habitat for humanity. I've switched from being straight to being gay. I have pretended to be an illegal immigrant and worked with illegal immigrants in sweat shops and other undesirable places (which I wanted to skin the bosses alive because of the way they treated us). Heck, I've even just transfered out of a top notched school (university of chicago) just so I could transfer to a state institution. Those are just a few of the things that I have tried to make my life a little less boring. Too bad I only had a knee injury in my recent car accident.
The point is I'm having trouble finding a purpose for myself. If this latest stunt I pulled (transfering to a school that my parents objected to) doesn't make my days a little brighter, I'm joining the army.
Give me plague, give me alien invasion, give me earthquake, give me flood, give me dawn of the dead, give me a big ass asteroid smashing into earth, give me anything but this mechanical uninteresting lifestyle that I am trapped in.
I know that this is outright selfish of me to wish for disaster. Most people want a stable unchanging lifestyle. They want to be secured in their everyday duties without interruption. They want to have as many chances as possible to have sex (at least that's what the guys seem to be after all the time).
Anyway, perhaps being responsible for the destruction of every organized religion in the world will cheer me up a bit.
The Laminator