Rob, you said:
I already know I am an evil person.
I'll take you word for it. But I don't have a clue as to what you mean. If your religion taught you that, then your religion is evil, too. I am not religious, and I don't believe I am evil. I am not perfect, either. If I ever chose to join a religion, it would have three tenets: 1) nothing is naturally evil, and everything is natural; 2) God (or Big Black Mambo Mamma, et al.) blessed me with a chance to participate in nature, and what I can or cannot do with this opportunity in ENTIRELY up to me; and 3) there is only ONE "heaven," which is more properly referred to as "Earth's biosphere"”'ashes to ashes, dust to dust'. That's all.
”HM