Hello EvC members.
Long have i been wondering about the members of EvCs beliefs, and story of beliefs.
So this is the post to share just that. Perhaps we could all learn something, or atleast get a better understanding from each other. I'll start;
I grew up with a christian family. Not very serious about it though. We were typical of the people of my country, Denmark. We did not go church except on Christmas and didnt really think about christianity that much.
When i was about 11 or 12 years old, my family had some trouble, or atleast, thats how i percieved it. I thought my parents were going to get at divorce, i started realizing the atrocities that happen every day all over the world etc.
So i actually started to pray. I started thinking about god.
I did not however, know anything about christianity, so i prayed to every biblical person i could remember with a prayer i made up my self.
This went on for year or two.
Then i became 14. It was time for my Confirmation. I was at this point, very much in doubt about religion. I doubted i even wanted to get this Confirmation.
So i read the Bible. Old & new testament.
That did it for me. Religion, or atleast christianity was terrible. It was just a bunch of nonsense stories. Besides beeing a horrible collection of hatred and intolerance, it contradicted it self, and just made no sense.
So at that point i lost all faith in the christian god, i ended having the Confirmation any way, as that the only way my parents were going to throw me the huge party that follows the Confirmation.
Though i had given up organized religion, i was still 'spiritual'.
I believed all sorts of nonsense, rubbish really.
I went to India for a short while while i was 16. There i learned about the Bahá'í , which i then pretty much my mirrored my faith with.
Time went on and about two years later i was a beginning skeptic. I doubted much of my previous beliefs but i still could not shake the belief on some kind of creator of the universe. I began reading about ID, which facinated me for a while, untill i realised it's fallacies.
After hat followed a period of internal battle. Atheism won.
I realized that there really were no evidence of anything supernatural. No clues from a creator left in the creation. There was nothing. So the only rational thing i could come up with were that there simply are no reason a god would exist.
Theres nothing pointing that way.
So that's where i am now.
As an extra point, the thing keeping the 'spiritual' those years, were the thought of having to die. Of existence ending for me.
It's only in the last few days i have come to peace with that. After reading Mod's thread, i started thinking about it, and i really do not want to have eternal life. I am fine with having to stop existing.
Now it's your turn.
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Edited by rbp, : Spelling errors
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