Member (Idle past 82 days)
From: NY USA
Message 22 of 310 (311355)
05-12-2006 8:28 AM
Reply to: Message 19 by Coragyps
05-11-2006 9:13 PM
Why I believe
If there was a God, and it was the Christian one, wouldn't you want to know Him? Wouldn't you want some kind of evidence?
I guess I will put down my testimony again, so that you can understand why I believe, because I didn't know what to believe for so many years.
I was raised catholic, but I quite believing when I was 8. The nun was teaching us how to pray, showed us the our Father, and the hail Mary... I read the bible before the our Father, and it says this is how Jesus said we should pray. Fine Jesus is the Son of God, this is the good book, makes sense.
I raised my hand and asked where in the bible is the Hail Mary? I got yelled at, and threatened by the nun. We aren't supposed to worship idols, so what gives? I got very frustrated, and could never sit in a church without getting angry, I always thought, what a bunch of BS.
But then ff 18 years later, I had my first child. I don't know, it's all explainable through science, but there was something that resounded in me that just was amazed at it all. It was one of those moments when you start thinking, why heck are we all here? Why do we feel such feelings, and why can we even ask ourselves these questions.
So I casually started reading the bible. Just informing myself, and then comparing what it said to real life. A lot of it started making sense. But a lot of it, I still didn't understand.
People in catholic church will pray, Father, Son, Holy Spirit. But ask them, what is the Holy Spirit? I bet you 9 out of 10 will not really know.
About 8 years after my child was born, I stood up in a church, and said I accept Jesus by faith, and I asked Him to come into my heart. But nothing changed, I didn't really feel anything, or if I did, I wasn't aware, because I still had too much of the world in me.
About another 6 years go by, and while in a trip to Puerto Rico, I had 3 different complete strangers all pray for me to be a spiritual leader of the family. I came back from the trip, and a someone I know asked me if I was Christian, and if I had a church. She invited me to her church. The church is 10 mins from my house, and I drove past it for 10 years,and I never knew it was a church, because there is no sign that says church, just child care.
So I went. They were playing different music, and everyone seemed free there. It wasn't all stuffy like a catholic church, but people weren't falling on the ground like some other churches I went to. But anyway, at that moment, I felt something. It was like electricity going through my body. It was an incredible feeling of love. They prayed for me there, said I should be a spiritual leader of my family.
Well, I thought I was just manifesting some kind of feelings on my own, but I did like the music, and I went and bought some cd's of it, and started listening to it. Well the feeling never went away, and a lot of thoughts started coming into my head, as though God was talking to me, for the next two weeks.
There was a change in me. A mental change, and everyone I knew reported a physical change. Mind you, I was a fairly happy person before, it's my nature to be happy all the time. Every single person I meet, who knew me before, said I looked ten years younger.
I stopped drinking ( I didn't drink that much anyway) and smoking pot (I smoked about twice a month) without even realizing it. A whole month had gone by, and I realized I had no urge.
I felt the Lord speak to me, and He told me that He created me, and that the spirit of truth would reside in me, and that no-one would be able to lie to me any more. It has been true so far, as long as I focus on God, and not myself, I am not as gullible anymore. I was gullible because I was a nice person, too nice to people.
I also started playing keyboards for the church, something I thought would always be a way for me to get to know God, to play music for Him. When I was jamming in my quiet time my whole life, I would talk to Him "if He was there" or I was talking to myself.
All the other churches I went to, when I told them that I played keyboards, I always got the same response "that's nice". But within weeks, I was on the worship team, and now I am the leader.
There are way too many "coincidences" for me to list here, and explain with enough detail so you could understand. There was way too much revelation and wisdom that comes with it. I know it's all subjective, but when you start to calculate odds, and you question yourself, and check yourself to see that your not going crazy, it all starts to add up to something. Couple that with what I felt, which was a real feeling, it was overwhelming.
I still feel that to this day, and I believe it to be the Holy Spirit. I am constantly testing it, and all the goes with it. I really want to make sure it's not just in my head. I have explained experiences in these forums where the experiences of people around me have paralleled my own, so it's not just me.
So the day I felt this, is either the day I went crazy, or the day I got a little taste of God. That's why I believe.
It's funny, the atheist's here don't believe because of lack of evidence. They want a sign first, then they will believe. But that's not the way it works. If you seriously want to know God, then you have to ask Him into your heart, and mean it. It might take years before you get a viable sign, so be patient. But you'll know it's Him when it happens, just like you know that 2+2=4. It's truth and love, feelings you are very familiar with, you can't miss it.
The good thing, is that everyone here I come into contact with, is smart. That gives you the ability to weed out what isn't Him.
If you guys can believe in love, then you can believe in God.
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