for some stupid reason I can't bear to do the expected boring thing and lower myself to needless convention, consequently, I go home alone. But what do I do??
Um, you just said it, you go home alone. I'm not clear. Are you wanting advice on how to change your social interactions or relationships? There are some good self help books out there on that. Anything by Albert Ellis Ph.D. would be helpful. Are you sure you don't prefer going home alone? Maybe that is what you want.
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