I was quite pagan by now, practicing shamanistic magic and ingaging with spirits nearly daily - I could see this was real, the evidence of my eyes couldn't be lying to me BUT I still had questions. I needed to learn how these things were happening, why principals of science could support this magical world I had discovered lurking beneath the surface? So along side my books on mythology, magic and religion I now took down books on psychology, sociology and science. For a second time my world was rocked, a new gleaming and irresitibly sexy world was lying beneath all the things I thought I knew - it was rather breath taking. James Randi and Richard Dawkins began to mold my mind, and yet again what I had believed and known to be true began to slip away.
I wonder if you'd be willing or able to describe more about this,
1) what you mean about "engaging with spirits daily" and
2) why, if you "could see that this was real" you were so apparently easily talked out of its being real?
Just for context, I went through a phase of occultic exploration before I became a Christian, mostly astrology and the I Ching, which are both like lenses onto the spirit world, had some mostly scary experiences of such entities too, and found other people in that phase extremely open to talking to me about their own similar experiences.
I used to be heavily involved with occult worship, on a personal level I had a familiar spirit I could summon whenever I wished, I worked with conjured energy and I cast spells with that energy and I was very aware of the spirit world around me, feeling residual energies within structures, using pendulums to commune with the dead etc. While professionally I worked as a tarot reader, I think my profile is still up on irishpsychics.ie
This may be just curiousity with no other real point to it, not sure, but I keep wanting to know things like --
What do you mean by having a familiar spirit, did you actually SEE this spirit or what? When you summoned him/it did it appear in visible form or what?
What do you mean by "residual energies within structures?" What does it mean to FEEL them?
What is "conjured energy?" How did you "cast spells" and what sort of spells did you cast and how did you know if the spell took or not?
When you "communed with the dead" what happened? Did "the dead" talk to you or what?
Do you think you are/were "psychic" and what does that mean to you?
Edited by Faith, : No reason given.
He who surrenders the first page of his Bible surrenders all. --John William Burgon, Inspiration and Interpretation, Sermon II.
2Cr 10:4-5 (For the weapons of our warfare [are] not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds;) Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God...