Burials

Welcome.I give thought occasionally to my future remains. I am in my 20s, yet my innevitable death frightens me. Occasionally I come to terms with the idea of being dead, but it is the act of dying that I cannot accept: to know that I will know; one moment I will be toward the end and just waiting; the next moment I will be at the end and feel the exactness of demise. What's more, I cannot be sure that I will be dead when I am dead. Maybe my brain will keep working for a while; maybe I will be "alive" when I am killed by the examiners. And that scares me most: to be dead but still alive. To sense my loved ones gathering round me and being helpless. To wake underground! It is paralysis. I fear paralysis.That said, I want my body not to be embalmed; I want a above-ground tomb that locks from the inside; I want non-perishable food left with me and an active phoneline running to the site.Given who I am, though, I will probably get drained, preserved, and boxed. But it doesn't hurt to ask...Jon