You simply awakened to the fact that you were trying to please Daddy...
Translation: I was walking everyday in obedience to my Heavenly Father.
...and under willful bondage to an authoritarian religious system.
Translation: Every day I prayed "Not my will, but Thine be done."
You also likely fell under the sway of...
Wanting to reject the oppressive authoritarianism, you threw your god out with it all.
Stop pretending you know the first thing about my past...
For me, throwing God away is as serious as throwing my own life away
Yeah Phat, I remember that feeling well. I could not wrap my brain around not only a universe without a god, but specifically, a universe without my
personal God. This is an infection of the mind, and is exactly what makes religion so insidious, and hard to get free of. And it has spread far and fast in you, and is making you sicker at an accelerating rate. You are quickly becoming the resident Faith of the forum; mentally impervious to any reason, intellectual hollowness throwing out vanities into the void. I used to really enjoy going back and forth with you, because at least you were making sense in your own way.
Thus I have no reason to even think of doing so.
You may be almost past the point of no return, Phaith, and I'm sad for it.
"...heck is a small price to pay for the truth"