While I was a student at Cornell I had an intellectual experience where it was as clear to me as it was in taking a test in Chemistry that I was thinking something that others might not even try to think when walking AMONG the different quads/schools. This of course was not "knowledge" but a perception that at least at the level of the average Cornellian (which was a decision, to go to an Ivy School instead of some other "state" school etc that differed from all of my immediate Family) I could "sense" I was "Doing" something different and beyond what was happening around me. All I was actually doing was trying to read and understand ANYTHING that happened to come on my mind in science and thus shifting among the libraries on the Campus which caused me to have to walk among the student and faculty population across the very space that I experienced that I was "beyond."
This average daily expereince that also garnered good grades, went in two directions, so to speak. I tried to get beyond myself but this caused friction and lower grades with faculty despite the fact that I was able to WALK away from the "rule" or "experience" with an idea of the highest caliber that I had only subsequently READ from withing Creationism literature.
These days, I decided to stay in the Cornell vacinity so as to "sense" this former experience and thus if I do then that at least "leads me" to suspect that even with some uncertainity I would still be heading in the same direction of increasing my own apprehension and knowledge. Obviously I can only verify if I know something if I find someone else who understands what I explain.
I have however managed to get enough of my ideation across on EvC that I have been able to start feeling confident enough that the material I have not introduced here are equally likely to become acceptable and expected. This is why I am opening up ALL of my ideas on a web site external to EvC.
The Trainer
Basically if THE FORM is within diagrams which I attempted to have Will Provine accept about the same time I started to write to EvC, can be read as a short hand of what I must visualize for the content to be objective enough for me (in biology). Will however not only did not respond to me (this time, many times later) but also refused to respond to Gladyshev's ideas, plus I have sat in the same place I have listened to Linus Pauling that I listened to the religious aspects of Dirac's beauty so I have no problem with the idea I corrected Von Weiskaer for, in the same building, that actual infinity can be cognized in science. Stuart Kaufmann said if this was what I was I thinking not to stop so thinking. Those are two individuals who lectured in the very environment in ways that I considered to be at or above where I was, way back then.
So the end run is to sense the same "feeling" I had on trying to think about acutal infinity as an organizing theme in biological orders which occurred for me in failing to comprehend how mathematical rings were to be applied. I eventually learned that no one was even trying to apply rings in biology in the same way that their existence was being prooved purely.
So until this experience becomes the common everyday one of the average student at an elite institution I will continue to be able to desire that I can work towards this kind of change that really was simply my own desire to set aside a few hours on Sunday to worship and put of running down the latest thought, I might have had. Posting on Evc is way to test THAT, but that does not validate the knowledge only that the way I came to its threshold is communicable beyond the environemt I first came aboard,about, among, around, at it.
Edited by Brad McFall, : did not link "diagrams" they have appeared on EVC before
Edited by Brad McFall, : aDDED lINk
Edited by Brad McFall, : picture from THE LAME (The Lamp) March 31, 1983 added