I will ignore Rhain as he has taken parts of the story, AGAIN.
'Basically I believed as strongly as you do.'
I would believe you, but I don't because if you did believe as much as I do , you would still believe now. My point is, I have heard the word (the seed) and I have kept on believing. So how could your belief be as strong, mine has withstood things like 'evolution' e.t.c
I don't believe God 'does not exist' because of such things as what happened with you. As God says if it does not happen it is the 'unbelief' which most certainly does shine through in your case, as you DONT believe!