Do you ever think there will be a time when you will say 'ok, i've had enough now, I no longer want to exist'?
Yes. I can imagine that after x thousand or million years life could get very boring. At that point I would want to die.
My fear of death is incomparable to any other emotion that I have felt. But I am unable to pin down exactly what the cause of that fear is. Perhaps it is subconscious, i don't know. I want to live, but why? Why is existence so important to me? My mind boggles when trying to answer this question. Perhaps it is because the only reason that i do things is so that i will be able to experience their consequences. whatever the cause, the fear manifests itself as an inner scream, a childlike plea and a desperate urge. Perhaps if i can find the cause, then i can overcome the urge.
I don't know if I can help you with that. As I said, I don't want to die but I don't fear death. There are many things that I would like to do, things I want to see. Most of them will more than likely never happen in my lifetime, if at all and there isn't nearly enough time in one persons life to experiance or do most of the rest.
That being said, I have faced death more than once and in those moments it was regret for things not yet done and not fear of death that filled my mind.
He hoped and prayed that there wasn't an afterlife. Then he realized there was a contradiction involved here and merely hoped that there wasn't an afterlife.
- Douglas Adams, The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy