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I may end up believing in either evolution or creation
You are coming to a conclusion based on everything you have read. The reason you believe is not based by choice, but rather a reaction you have based on your life experiences and choices. You can be brainwashed into believing anything. It doesn't mean that you chose to believe. You can TRY and talk yourself into believing in something, and yes, I agree that you can influence your beliefs to some extent, but it doesn't mean you can simply choose what you believe in.
In my case, I would love to believe in certain things, but my mind tells me this CAN'T be possible. Hence, I don't believe.
Beliefs are feelings, and your are not in FULL control of your feelings. I have always been told to love GOD. So do I just choose to love him? I can say "I love God"...But that doesn't mean I love him. Do you choose who you love?
If a person you love suddenly died, can you choose how to feel?