Looking at your life from a detached view, we could say that you were hungry for acceptance emotionally and that the church filled that need for awhile.
Here's a hint. Unless you're a mind reader, when someone tells you that they are or were a believer, take their word for it. You have absolutely no basis whatsoever to second-guess them.
I was a believer. I'm not now. That I'm not now doesn't mean I wasn't then. I imagine its the same for Schraf.
My point is that if you ever DID have a relationship with God then you still do.
Not only did we not then, you don't, now. God would have to exist to have a relationship with him.
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