I'm not sure what you mean by an "active or passive projection," although as used in my sentence it is certainly in the active voice. Maybe you could clarify for me. I was not deliberately lying to myself; but then deception is usually subtle.
I was wondering if you were actually trying to project it, or if it was just something you were doing unconsciously.
If my brain were magically able to answer all my doubts and questions, and revert to a state of substance-less belief, I have little doubt I would be able to "do it" again.
I get how doubt could prevent you. But have you tried?
Why did you qualify the belief as substance-less? I don't see why that matters in particular.
I mean, millions of people "do it" every day, to a variety of gods. Maybe you also "do it."
Sure, but I don't think those people haven't concluded that they're just projecting. I'm just curious if you can still do the projecting after you've determined that's what you're doing.
Oh yeah, so how did you determine this? Is it a deduction you had to accept after you stopped believing? Or was there something in particular that made you realize it?
These are the complexities of the human mind, but I'm not impressed with the way you worded it, as though it were a parlor trick.
That was unintentional, and I don't mean to belittle the experience. I'm just curious. Just asking questions.