Why This Belief?

i don't think it was christ so much who made those claims. he seems like your average itinerant preacher... living in near poverty, having few friends and many enemies, teaching kindness and humility, etc. the whole rest of the religion seems to be built after him. perhaps it's true that he was somehow divine and perhaps he did die and rise again so that god could forgive us. but. some kind of all-ending belief in him seems to be more in the writings of paul than the teachings of jesus. jesus loved the skeptical. he caters to thomas without even being asked and provides him the proof he demands. thus god gave me my doubts that i might love him more.