What does God mean to you? Do not respond to any message except message #1

There are many sides to my God. When I was young elders told me that he loved me and wanted to take care of me. As I grew he became a powerful force that the elder said would strike me down if I did worng. I saw many wonderful miricles that were said to be from believing in God. Then in my married life I was told not to drink, smoke, cuzz, play cards, or go to movies. The list just kept growing, until all you had left was going to church, and working for them trying to pull in more people. I can tell you I ran from there and told myself I could not deal with a God like that, one who gave so many fun things to do and then slapped you when you did them. Then many years later, I was drawn to the real God. The creator of everything. I also found true reglion. Helping those in need of finding love, those who need a helping hand out of dispair, guilt, and condemnation. I went to the Word and found the Word saves those who seek, ask or knocks. In the begining was the Word and the Word was with God and the Word was God. There is only one Word, but many words, that are a word but not the word Word. The fear, respect, of Words, is the begining of wisdom. No one can except or reject this without the use of God, and his host of words. Jesus said the words that I speak they are spirit and they are life. This is God to me.