You are finding yourself in an interesting situation, Rat. I have grown to believe that I can never "prove" God on an intellectual and/or empirical level. I believe that God is evident in my heart and through my spiritual growth, however. Both you and I know that as believers, we have been taught that neither God nor creationism can ever be proven. (at least I don't think so.)
Does that make our faith any less valid as Christians? IMO, No.
BTW, where do you want to go with
this topic? What is your central question?