I hate my spending so much time at evc sometimes
Me? I view it as an addiction. It seems to me (for me) to have all the classic hallmarks of one.
- inability to say no. A certain powerlessness.
- diminishing returns: the good wears off and you are left with a hollowed out shell (Screwtape describes how Satan applies addiction nail-on-head).
- guilt (Satan too).
- occasional highs of old just to keep the hook in. Especially when one gets to thinking "something smells".
- putting up with heavily cut gear (in the form of poor posts) for the sake of a fix.
- being defensive and irrational when it comes to facing the fact it is an addiction.
I could go on but it seems clear enough to me. I imagine that EvC is the perfect home for an argumentitive, self-righteous nature. And half the solution to any problem is realising one has one in the first place. I imagine to that the solution is relatively straightforward. No more EvC. Does that feel like a huge loss? Then for sure it is addiction!
Whenever you say sis, lets both decide on a day to exit. And stay away. It may be that (as Screwtape once said) "its as simple as that". We can spend the time praying for each other. If not his will then we can expect all the assistance of one who loves us not a jot less for our addiction.
We cannot serve God and Mammon.
Edited by iano, : No reason given.