Get Over Your Fear of Atheism

MarkI came across this thread and felt that I would like to share my story with you. I hope that you are still listening.All my life I have been purely a believer in science and reasoning. But recently something very strange to me happened. One day I was admiring the architecture of a church and when inside I was all alone and very causally spoke to God. I thought nothing of it. I didn't think anything would change as a result of these words which I considered to be taken with the wind. But from that day things did start to change. Things that made me doubt that I was talking to a brick wall. For the next 8 months I would find myself gradually being swept away by my new faith. But this change didn't come without a great deal of pain, misery and suffering. I doubted my new beliefs every step of the way. One day I was believer the next I was not. For the life of me I didn't know where I was heading. The closer I got the more confused I became. Until one day when I was so upset that something let go inside of me, I let go of my disbelief when I realised that all my life I had been ignoring God. What felt like 30 years of suffering suddenly started pouring out of me in floods. I feel in all the time I had been reasoning God away I was slowely working myself forward. I have never believed in anything so strongly in all my life.So it disheartens me, having recently found God and fallen in love with God, to hear that someone else is questioning their faith in God himself. I know very little about Christianity, I don't go to church or read the bible but I do know that God came to me with the same love and I can look to God to guide me through the journey of life.If I hadn't questioned my own faiths I might not have found God in the first place and I wouldn't feel the way I do now. I am certain that you can work through this problem with your friends and family because it is through them that God will help you. It may be a difficult and painful journey but reading what you have written I am confident you will find the courage you need to get through it.Good luck on your journey.StevieBoy

I will tell you a bit more about my story in view of creation science.A friend of mine one day shocked me by stating that she didn't like the way science books presented their theories as fact. This was my first encounter with a creationist and I was outraged. I argued against her words in my mind. "Its a damn book about science, what does she expect?". "Isn't it trying to present a scientific theory and not fact?" "Do Christians have the authority to question science?". She is entitled to her view but I couldn't help feeling that something was wrong with her perspective.That was several months before I candidly spoke to God. Ironically it was my curiosity in what I still consider to be false belief that led me to God. So I actually have my friend to thank for that.We cannot fully understand the world around us or our believes in its origins. We can continue to gain knowledge and grow as human beings but for the most part we must accept that we live in the world of not knowing.That is important because if we are not comfortable living with the possibility that our beliefs may not be true or represent reality, then we will try to present Gods word, or the bible, or sciences, or simple facts, anything we can damn well get our hands on, to impress upon others our own personal beliefs. Many do this. But to what effect? So that we feel a little less lonely? It seems to me that creation scientists are leading the crusade against the world in the name of Jesus.