Regarding the BB theory you say:
It is a fairy tale, that if true would imply utter hopelessness. I choose to believe in good things instead of this disgusting theory.
Are aware that the one of the orignators of the BB theory was a devout Christian (Lemaitre) and his ideas were strongly opposed by Spinozian pantheist (Einstein) and an atheist (Fred Hoyle)? Their opposition to the theory was, among other things, based on it sounding a bit too biblical. I'm not sure that it matters, just thought you might find it interesting.
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The Big Bang is a scientific theory, and as such stands or falls by its agreement with observations. But as a theory which addresses, or at least seems to address, the origins of reality, it has always been entangled with theological and philosophical implications. In the 1920s and '30s almost every major cosmologist preferred an eternal universe, and several complained that the beginning of time implied by the Big Bang imported religious concepts into physics; this objection was later repeated by supporters of the steady state theory.[53] This perception was enhanced by the fact that the theory's inventor, Georges Lematre, was a Roman Catholic priest.
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