Mike the wiz:
Rob seeks honour from God - not from persons. God spoke through him directly to my soul and healed me. Rob couldn't have known how much his post meant to me. It's impossible - only God knew. For me, his post was a triumph because he acted on spirit - not flesh. He wasn't ashamed to post it.
I have a confession mike...
If you go back and look at many of my posts (which I am not suggesting you do, or assuming you will), you
would see that I have very often sought just that! Honor from persons that is...
I have been seeking the approval of men here at EVC far too much. And have too often allowed the lack of it, to steal my joy.
Why?
Because like you I knew that I was right. And not that
I was right, but really it was
'the truth' that was right. It was the logic of it. It is Christ!
But I was seeking personal glory for this new found power. A power that was
given to me. A power that cannot be learned. A power that is imparted freely by another to whom it belongs and to whom belongs the Glory.
I was often using it for myself. Though in vain...
And God used some very disturbing people to show me that He would not share His glory with another.
The post I sent to you was very simmilar to many of my first posts here. Posts that were immmediately rebuked and hated. In light of the rejection I attempted to reach them with human wisdom.
No fruit to bear...
Instead I became prideful and angry. I said some terrible things. I couldn't make them see. I couldn't educate them. I couldn't do what only God can do.
The coruption within me was being refined (and still is). It was all brought to the surface. I see my own depravity now. And I am grateful, though many here (not suprisingly) misinterpret it as a curse. It is a blessing. One difficult to accept, but one that is healing in the end.
It is very likely that you are the only one here who will have the slightest clue as to what I'm talking about. So many others who claim 'to be', seem to lack the evident discernment. The others have long since gone. Perhaps they went through this same battle I have had within.
I am glad for you mike. And like you, I see very little reason to waste all of this time here. The only thing keepiong me here is pride. Even this message to you is a type of last gasp...
It's funny... I never spent a whole lot of time reading your posts. But now I see why the comedy was so central for you (unless I misunderstand something); there's no sense taking a place like this too seriously. At least, not in terms of actually thinking we have the power to open hearts.
Maybe you didn't see it that clearly. Maybe you did...
May the force be with you. Forever and ever...
Edited by Rob, : No reason given.