Oh my God, I'm an Atheist !!

I differ from the majority I guess. Its the thought of living for eternity that would cause me to commit suicide. I suppose that on my deathbed that would be my question for God: Must I continue?Its not that I do not enjoy life. Its also not that I do not wish for a much longer life. An eternity of anything is a frightening concept! Thats why I prefer Agnosticism, the heaven that so many people strive to reach sounds like the same hell that they say I am heading for.

Though I agree on all counts, thats not actually what I meant. I literally find the idea terrifying. If some sort of truth pops into my head at my moment of death I see no comfort in an eternal anything. In heaven I would have the time to actually learn the math behind all that physics stuff that amazes me, perhaps even learn the most complex aspects of biology. I would read every book (maybe even the bad ones), talk to every person {soul}, maybe even have a few millenea to bang heads with God. Then what??? Seen it all, thought it all, learned it all.Seriously - once I got all the bases covered Heaven is as much a curse as hell is. Hell may even be an interesting alternative being as I would not have experienced that yet! The interesting thing about pain is the more you are exposed to it the less it hurts. I don't actually fear hell any more than I fear heaven.I think of Heaven like a chocolate bar. I enjoy it and may eat a second, but I know that faced with an eternity of eating chocolate I would rather sew my lips shut.So I am agnostic and I hope that the Christians got it all wrong.