The God whom I believe in...
That's rather the point, though. Your God is just humanism. Like all good Christians, good Muslims, good Jews, and so on, you just ignore, or distort, what is in the book you claim contains the message of your God.
You have an instinct to behave as successfully evolved humans need to behave, but you have bought into a load of theological crap that allows the institutions of religion to convince that you are somehow born as less than you really are.
It's just sad.
KP