In order to test the Guide I would have to allow myself to question my belief. While healthy, how am I going to question an absolute without dismissing the absolute and going with my own reasoning? And is this not what leads to rebellion?
Whole bunch of questions rolled into one. Let's take them individually.
In order to test the Guide I would have to allow myself to question my belief.
Of course.
While healthy, how am I going to question an absolute without dismissing the absolute and going with my own reasoning?
That would depend on whether the alleged absolute stood up to examination.
And is this not what leads to rebellion?
No, of course not. Rebellion happens when the authority is found wanting.
It is said that people often construct God in their own minds as to their own image. (imagination) How will I know if the God I worship is the real McCoy? (Aside from God drawing me)
You can't. In particular the idea that "God drawing me" adds any validity is totally false. Those who are the victims of cons are drawn in. In fact the BEST cons are those where the sucker feels the most comfortable.
What sense does it make to do my best if by losing God I become an independant thinker?
By losing, preferably throwing away God you have the opportunity to find GOD. Hopefully then you will become an independant thinker. Why do you think GOD gave you the capacity to think if not for you to use it?
Is'nt that the whole root of rebellion anyway?
No, of course not. That though is the Great Lie told by many clergy to keep the folk from seeing the man behind the curtain.
Aslan is not a
Tame Lion