I've always had tremendous respect for you and your arguments, TL, and at times I've felt that if anybody could convince me of the inherent merit in religious belief and faith, it would be you. I'm telling you these things so that you won't interpret my next remarks in any tone but the one in which I'm writing them - a somewhat sad resignation to a truth I'd known all along.
I think this post of yours really hit it home for me - religious belief and faith are about our own need for the things that happen to us to have meaning, whether they really do or not. You know? When millions play the lottery, one of them has to win, and the
balls don't care whose ticket is the winning one. One ticket is the same as another is the same as millions to everybody who didn't win.
But the winner? It's impossible for him to see it as chance. I mean you can look up public statements by people who win big in the lottery and I doubt you'll find more than a tenth of them that will ascribe it to chance instead of to a gift from God, or some kind of divine plan, or karma, or some other form of purpose in the universe.
It's impossible for a lot of people to reduce life-changing events to chance; it's impossible for a lot of people to see themselves as data points in a population instead of, essentially, the only human being in the universe who matters.
That it's impossible for them to imagine, though, does not mean that it isn't true; and every now and then you can watch someone viscerally retract from the idea that the things that happen to them
aren't the result of divine purpose. You can literally
watch someone decide that something is true because
they want it to be true, and I felt that your post was one such moment.
I apologize if this has been hard for you to read because I've always had a lot of respect for your belief, your reasons for it and the arguments you've put forth about it, and I've always enjoyed reading it when you talk about your community and how you live. And I hope you don't stop doing those things. But in this post, I think you really convinced me of my atheism. Maybe not your intent and I hope you won't think less of yourself for it. From my perspective, you gave me the chance to see something true, and I sincerely thank you for it, with no sarcasm or ill intent.