I do not remember whether we had ever conversed. If so, then I hope I was not too much of a jerk. I try not to be and I try to keep to the truth or at least to being truthful, though I do know that I fail far too often.
You are going where we all will also go eventually. Like all of us, you will take whatever comfort you can in whatever you believe or feel. Of course, you have already put all your affairs in order, so that you need not worry about such trivial things -- trivial to you, but important to those you love. I am 64 and I think about putting everything in order; it is sad that you must do the same at almost-33, but it is the same thing.
When my mother died, she had been on life-support. When it came time to turn it off, we were all there, including our minister. Immediately afterwards, he remarked that the moment of death is when we all of us are alone. I disagree slightly. Many do indeed die alone, as my father had. But when we do die, we would want to be with the people whom we love and who love us. Because that love will help you, I truly believe.
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