I too had to respond. Its ironic that I as a Christian can ignore so many online persons until they write a letter such as you have. I wont give you any long religious speech nor try and convert you if indeed this is your last farewell...all I can say is trust Jesus.
Thanks for sharing your pain with us as well as whatever you shared in less stressful days...
ABe: WE have had several of our members die here...and its an odd human trait that I find myself more curious about someone who has departed...or in your case as someone who is faced with bleak facts. I pray that you live a long life regardless what any facts show...and that you find peace in your soul if it isn't there already.
Edited by Phat, : thinking what to say
Chance as a real force is a myth. It has no basis in reality and no place in scientific inquiry. For science and philosophy to continue to advance in knowledge, chance must be demythologized once and for all. —RC Sproul
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