Welcome back Monkey Boy. I hope you'll find as I have that faith ends up being stronger once it's been challenged
Thanks, but I do not feel that I am 'back', because I do not believe the way that I used to believe. I do not believe in the divinity of Christ, therefore by definition, I am not a Christian anymore.
Really, the only thing I 'get out of it", is a hope; I do not know with any degree of certainy that there is a heaven (I do not believe in a hell), but I hope that there is. In addition, I can say that I only 'feel' that there is a God, and although I do believe, I am unsure of His/Her/It's participation in our lives. I can offer no proof or evidence, (nor would I want to, since I think that faith is personal) but (and this is only my opinion) the alternative is worse.