ou do not see logic in my question? Science is an incomparable drama playing itself out against the backdrop of the universe. It brings to me more than I could possibly absorb in several additional lifetimes, except that one thing, that FIRST thing.
I want that first thing, Ned. Can you blame me?
Well here's a suggestion, enroll at the local college and sign up for all the hard science courses, find a good mentor for graduate school in the field that looks most probable. While you are doing this you should also be undertaking a deep study of religion. Expect to experience nirvana, OBE, and a "burning in the bosom".
I can't guarantee this will bring you to knowledge of the FIRST THING, but You'll have a lot of fun.
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